Recently, I realized that I never really had a "This is Me" post, or even a welcoming post. Odd, huh? I know I have a "About Me" section, but I don't think that's enough. One of the main reasons I never really went in great detail on who I am is because I'm just not very good at that stuff. Or at least not on paper. I'm great at ice-breakers. *not being sarcastic*
So, because of my lack of explanation on who I am and why I have this blog--if it's not evident enough--I'll tell you.
First things first: I'm not cocky or trying to brag about myself, I'm simply stating things about me.
So no need to say I'm full of myself for wanting to add more information on myself or say....
Then again, there really is no reason to say that since I've got nothing to brag about. Let's get started!
If it's not obvious, I love adding gifs and images to my posts. About two months ago, I didn't know how to add gifs into posts or book reviews on Goodreads, so I'm still kind of new to this. The reason to why I made this blog is so I can easily connect with possible readers/fans through out my writing career.
Here's some basic info:
1-I've been creating stories for the past seven years. It first started off as making these dreadful comic books (they were about three pages long, front and back). I made those for about two years. Somehow, that transitioned into writing novels. I wanted one of my comic book characters to have their own book to match...After that first day of writing, I was hooked into writing short stories. That progressively turned into writing novel length stories.
2-I live in California. I lived in Texas for most of my life.
3-English isn't my first language, but I speak it fluently. Most people can't tell English isn't' first language when they first meet me since I've an American accent.
4- I used to hate New Adult novels. Wait, hate is the wrong word. I used to really dislike the novels I came across in the New Adult genre. I dislike a lot of things within the books I found. Such as: the slut shaming, the need for every female heroine character being a virgin and the guy having to be a player, the lack of diversity, and many other things as well. Now that I write New Adult and have come across more novels in the past year, I have grown to love the genre a lot more than I initially did.
Because I'm completely lost on how to continue this post, I'm going to use some questions I got online to keep this blog rolling.
- How old would you be...if you didn't know how old you are?
Hmm. Being older is nice and all because of freedom, but I miss the days when I didn't have to stress anything besides missing. Things were so much similar from ages 0-12, then when puberty hit like a freakin' freight train, things just went downhill from there.
But mentality wise, I think I'm a lot older than I actually am. I'm probably in my late 20s if you go based on how I act, talk ,carry myself.
2. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
Well, that's simple to answer. I'd dance more; read a taboo book I probably should be reading in private, but read in public (such a rebel); tell my mother about all the things I've lied to her about throughout the years--even the shameful stuff; and lastly, show the world my sh*tty comic books that I wrote in middle school. I'd never do that now because I know they're truly awful. Just to show you how horrible they were, I'll tell you one of the titles. "The Adventures of Weirdo Boy and the Nerdy Villain"...I really wasn't leaving anything up for imagination or mystery; you can only guess what happened in the story and who the villain was.
3. Who do you love? And what are you doing about?
See, this question is confusing. Do they mean in a romantic sense? Or your family? I don't know, so I'll answer for both. For my family, I think I should be a lot more nicer to them with all they've done for me. In general, I don't treat them with zero respect; I honestly love them all to death, it's just sometimes I think with stress and my odd moods, I might just shut people off and not speak to anyone for a long stretch of time. That's something I need to fix personally.
And I think I could say the same thing with the person that I'm with. (I don't know if he'd be okay with me disclosing his name, so let's just call him by W.) With the book still being worked on, I wish I could just put more time aside. On top of that, I'm really bad with responding quickly for messages or being mentally present when I'm there for the past few weeks. And for that, I deeply apologize W for my inconsistency and flat-out unacceptable behavior. I'm so glad that he can understand what I do and deal with me when I go M.I.A. for a while, trapped in my mind for hours on end.
4. Do you think crying is a sign of weakness or strength?
I KNOW it's a sign of strength. In the world we live in today, vulnerability is seen as a weak thing, which it definitely is not. We shouldn't be teach people that being tough and "intimating" means you're a strong person; it means you're a insecure person, if anything. American's like to believe they our country is strong with the amount of money we pour into the military, but to me, I see fear. Think about it. When you're vulnerable, you're open and show your true colors. But let's say someone is completely closed off and never open whatsoever, most likely, people will associate that person of having insecurity issues, that maybe people will judge them. I think I'm rambling now, but you get my point right? Don't be afraid to show your emotions. They're powerful.
5. Would you break the law to save someone you loved?
Yes. Rules were made to be broken.
6. If you could do it all over again...would you change anything?
I'd try to be more honest from the get-go. And though I love the fact that I'm outspoken, I wish I could've shut up sometimes.
7. If you had a friend who spoke to you in the same way that you sometimes speak to yourself, how long would you allow that person be your friend?
Sometimes, my comments to myself can be nice, but most of the time, they're quite brutal. I think it's just a part of being human. You point at your flaws a little bit longer than the rest; you dwindle time away on your issues more than you should. I wouldn't want to be friends with me in the end though. Would you? Leave you comments down below.
8. Are you aware that someone has it WORSE than you?
Everyday. I live in a big city, so I see lots of things that I wish I didn't. And I'm not saying that in a snooty way. Multiple times I've driven past Skid Row, (for those who don't know, Skid Row is in a area of downtown Los Angeles where a lot of the homeless reside) and it is honestly one of the most heart-breaking things. The last time I was there--two weekends ago--I saw an elderly man stick a needle into a woman's neck and then stick the same needle into his own flesh. The woman began bleeding from his puncture, and he tried to assist her, but she wasn't having any of it and wander off.
Stuff like this makes me want to help. I'm sure many of you have felt the same way, but didn't know how. We're on the same boat. I want to hand them money when they ask, but I'm worried that I'm contributing into their addiction. Is that just me?
One of these days, I'm going to see if I can volunteer. Every Saturday, as it seems, they hand out food to the homeless. I'm going to see what origination runs this and see if I can pitch in.
9. What advice would you give yourself three years ago?
You're worth more than what you think. Don't aim so low and don't take anyone's bull if they think otherwise. Laugh more! Stop worrying about the little things and embrace the more important ones! DON'T YOU DARE START ACTING LIKE A HIPSTER! TAKE OFF THOSE UN-PRESCRIBED GLASSES! AND STOP LISTENING TO THAT STUFF! Loving an unknown band simply cause they're unknown isn't cool.
And those loser guys who ruined your idea of love? Tell them to eat dirt and then run along into the fucking sunset, cause you're about to meet someone that'll make your current heartache irrelevant.
Life isn't over, even if darkness seems to be the only thing you see. Just wait. The clearing will appear soon.
And to end on a positive note!
10. What do you want to achieve in ten years from now?
- A healthy and happy family.
- A *satisfying* stable job.
- A few books published.
- A Masters/PhD
- Still writing, no matter how this goes. Even if I sell 100 books or zero, I want my words out there.
Alright, that's enough for now. Hopefully I've said enough so you're not asking:
OK! I'll stop using all of the gifs. They are so fun; I get carried away sometimes...wait, I just noticed that's Ray Romano's in this gif. Bonus!
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